I need to go into hibernation, immediately. It feels like I haven't sleep since the weekend started and i'm sure that's close to being true.

Clean up.

So I just finished cleaning my old room upstairs. I found so much band merch that I felt the need to make a list of all my shirts, so here it is:

(in no particular order)

Goldfinger - I Have Too Much Body Hair
Splipknot
Limp Bizkit - Significant Other Tour 1999
White Zombie - Astrocreep 2000
Every Step, Every Breath - Woman with hole in her throat!
Comeback Kid - Wake the Dead
Rosesdead - Stages
Unearth Hoodie - Two Skulls
Dropkick Murphy's Hoodie - Puttin' On The Foil
Tool - Preseminal Tour Australia
Tool - 10,000 Days Tour 2006
Tool - Laterals Tour 2001
Tool - Brain Pill
Tool - Edgefest 2001
Operation Ivy - Silkscreened
Every Step, Every Breath - Diseased fingers
Hopesfall - from end of an era
Bad Religion - Crossbuster (got suspended from school for this one)
Rise and Fall - from This is Hardcore Fest 07' in Philadelphia
Every Time I Die - Grey
Evry Time I Die - Hot Damn! Buffalo NY
Cancer Bats
Strike Anywhere - Exit English
Dead Kennedy's - DK Symbol
NOFX - Not My President
Rise Against - Generation Lost 2004
The Casualties - Die Hards
About To Snap - Guy with revolver committing suicide
Poison The Well - Man choking victim, Warped 2002
Every Step, Every Breath - Red Cross Gig shirt
With Honor Longsleeve - CTHC 2005
Tiger Army - Psychobilly, with Bat
This Day Forward - Mountains
Misery Signals - Maroon
Misery Signals - Same shirt in White
Bane Hoodie - Blue on Grey
Gravemaker - Homeless 2008
To Cherish - Red Lion
Trapped Under Ice - Yellow Lion
Green Day - Insomniac Tour 1998
Comeback Kid - Boombox
Lengendary Klopeks Longsleeve
AFI Hoodie - AFI Skull
Attack in Black - Crowd of Girls/Crow
Another Breath - Bathtub Suicide
The Miles Between - Black
The Gorgeous - Lizard
Three Point Stance - Est 2005
Every Step, Every Breath - Coffin
Terror Hoodie - Navy Blue
Arise and Ruin - Grim reaper

I'm probably leaving out a few, but I think that's enough for now haha.

Taking a cab twice by myself tonight really sucked. It was nice to see lot's of different faces at the show and boston pizza, but ultimately i went everywhere by myself tonight and left by myself.

That feeling you have after a good night out isn't exactly what i'm feeling now, but I have to try and accept things for how they are...and not how I want them to be.
That is the hardest part of my life right now.

Today has been a better day than most! I woke up for orientation, this time with a little more sleep in me. Fortunately our manager who talks in nothing but "ummmm's and uhhhhh's" decided he should run errands and let Kyle, the younger supervisor to handle the presentation. We wizzed through the WHMIS test in like ten minutes and then all gathered in the lunch room to copy off one another during the test. Haha again, such a jokes atmosphere at work.
After the two workplace safety tests, everyone was allowed to leave so I was happy to be getting home early. On my way back, Jo asked if I would take her to get her tattoo touched up and that excited me. We ended up seeing Jess at Lucky Devil and waiting around a lot longer than we thought for Jay, but we passed the time by looking at pages and pages of tattoo mags. I like watching Jo get tattooed! The swallow and forgets me not look more sweet now..

Watched some of Travis Pastrana's new show on MTV today. It was pretty mindblowing, I could watch episode after epidsode of stuff like that. I think if I had my choice of some of the shit these guys do, i'd either go for the para-flying or dirt-bike water skiing haha.

Tonight is Holly Springs at the White Rabbit. My dad loaned me some money for the week since I had to take out a big chunk of money to deal with my unpaid ticket. I'll be budgeting pretty hard for a few days but want to try and stick to not drinking or smoking (much) during the week. Tonight I want to get drunk though and just have as much fun as I can! HOSS.

Right now,

I wish it wasn't so late. I need to play music and use up whatever bit energy I have left for today...

Drumming playlist for today:

August Burns Red - Barbarian
Deftones - Digital Bath
Wintersleep - Nerves Normal, Breathes Normal
Wintersleep - Search Party
Mars Volta - Inertiatic Esp
Tool - Bottom
Tool - The Patient
Tool - Flood
Converge - The Saddest Day

I need to have another shower now.

Starting this blog over...again.

At a time when the words should be pouring out of me, there's just nothing I can say anymore to take yesterday and everyday before that back.

The pendulum swings,
And it always will.
No time to feel your pain
I've got no time to kill
I look around,
The smiling faces disappear
I got the chance to tell you how I feel
But Time wont stop

Now my back is tired
And my hands are worn
The end gets closer
I am no good for keeping the promises I've made.
To kid myself?
As my ambitions fade

Time won't stop putting the years into my eyes
As my life passes by

Since I was just a kid
I always did for myself
So I put my youth to the back of the shelf
So much regret for the time I spent
Nothing to show
Where has my youth gone?
Time wont stop

Now my back is broke
And my spirit too
Death clock ticking, nothin' you can do
Never a chance for sleep,
Now i'm sick and tired.
I ain't got no dreams.

Time won't stop putting the years into my eyes
As my life passes by..

As everyone keeps fucking dying around me
All I know is this much
Soon I too will be dust
And you will be dust
Time won't stop.